I know my blog has been rather quiet lately. I have a lot of recent work that is ready to be blogged but right now, I just can't do it. My heart is heavy and all I can think about is the people of my beautiful home state, and the complete and utter devastation. I'm a bit of a news junkie anyway, but I have been glued to the news since 1:30 on Monday. I can't eat, I can't sleep, and I can't focus on the simplest tasks. I choked up while walking my dogs yesterday and couldn't get back in my apartment and lock the door fast enough. I saw a news story about a lady who found her dog alive while being interviewed, and her dog looked EXACTLY like Mr. Bojangles. I can't move from one room to another without picking them up and telling them repeatedly that I love them. I know it's silly. I know I would be even more overcome with emotion if I had children. I know that I don't have much, but the thought of losing everything is completely and utterly terrifying.
When I moved to NYC around 9 months ago, I know that my mother was probably scared for my safety. You only hear stories about bad things on the news. It's dangerous, there's lots of crime. Only bad guys have guns. Tornadoes don't hit NYC. They just don't. I'd rather be mugged in an alley than lose everything. Part of my home state was DEMOLISHED. It really just puts things in perspective about how danger is everywhere. You are never 100% safe. The best you can do is be prepared to handle whatever happens.
I know I sound like such a Debbie Downer right now, but the good news is that Oklahomans are known for their resilience. The largest problem they are facing right now is TOO MANY PEOPLE WANT TO HELP. What a terrible problem to have. I haven't yet decided how I am going to contribute to the cleanup and rebuilding, but rest assured I will contribute. I will find a way to help the families who lost everything.
As we head toward ending this terrible week, hug your loved ones. Make it a point to tell them you love them. Squeeze your kids and your pets and your spouse and never let go. Don't say things you will regret if something happens tomorrow, because we are never 100% safe, and things can change in an instant.
Stay strong Oklahoma. My homa. My home.